its been a week.
im in high school.
lets talk boys.
as the teenaged girl that i am, i like boys. and also, as the teenaged girl that i am, i often have daydreams about the "perfect guy". but let's be serious. what girl doesn't, right?
i've been on plenty of dates with plenty of guys, and have met lots that i really like. lately, though it seems like the guys i spend time with/date are polar opposites.
one knows what he's going to do with his life. where he's going to school, what he's going to do, etc. he's also "figured himself out". you know those people in high school who just act weird because they haven't "found themselves" yet? yep. he's found. he is super sweet and likes me for being me. for being funny (really??), intelligent, pretty and amazing. wow. that could really get a girl going. =) he is also a SUPER good guy. i'm not gonna lie...every once in a while, i can appreciate a dirty joke, and swearing doesn't bother me nearly as much as it (probably) should. i have to watch myself so that i'm on my very best behavior whenever i hang out with him, which is sometimes tiring (and less fun:).
the other is, admittedly, younger, but he is also really fun to hang out with. he is HILARIOUS and spontaneous and his family is awesome! he on the other hand, has not found himself yet. he's still trying to be something that isn't quite him yet...i dont' think. but he is super fun to hang out with and he also appreciates a dirty joke every now and then. more 'now' than 'then' though, because he is rather immature. =) but he also likes me because i'm hot. just because of who my parents are and the fact that i spent 13 years taking ballet classes does not make me hot. that is not circumstantial at all and i have not had to do anything to become what he calls hot. still, it is nice to have someone like you for being nice looking. and sometimes i wonder if that's all he notices. if maybe the jokes and quirky sayings and lame comments are lost to the fact that 1) i'm older than him, and/or 2) i look nice sometimes.
where was i going with this? no idea.
so, this post accomplished nothing.
boys will be boys.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
fights.
sometimes i have to really fight to be happy. it's like an internal struggle between where i know i could be and what is currently going on in my life.
i don't even know why i'm in a bad mood. maybe i'm depressed. i know that there is a possiblity that it could be hereditary. quite often though, i feel extremely sad for no particular reason. like i'm not doing enough with my life. like i'm not living up to some standard that everyone else can live up to.
it used to be that these thoughts would dominate my life and i would obsess over the negative in my life. i just wanted to stop trying so hard. to sleep...forever. i am so glad that's not so anymore.
i have to fight myself to not take it out on the people around me. and more often than not, i lose that fight. sorry.
these internal struggles happen a lot in my life.
i used to struggle a lot with my weight. and more than that, with my image. i'm much better about it now, and much happier, but there are times when my brain slips back into the way it used to function, and it sort of goes on this crazy downward spiral about how i view my body. i can't really control when/where/why this happens, but it seems to coinside with the "depression" swings i have.
i don't know what this post has accomplished, other than help me procrastinate the philosophy paper i'm supposed to be writing, but....
this was an extremely personal post. luckily for me, only like 2 people read my blog. =)
i don't even know why i'm in a bad mood. maybe i'm depressed. i know that there is a possiblity that it could be hereditary. quite often though, i feel extremely sad for no particular reason. like i'm not doing enough with my life. like i'm not living up to some standard that everyone else can live up to.
i have to fight myself to not take it out on the people around me. and more often than not, i lose that fight. sorry.
these internal struggles happen a lot in my life.
i used to struggle a lot with my weight. and more than that, with my image. i'm much better about it now, and much happier, but there are times when my brain slips back into the way it used to function, and it sort of goes on this crazy downward spiral about how i view my body. i can't really control when/where/why this happens, but it seems to coinside with the "depression" swings i have.
i don't know what this post has accomplished, other than help me procrastinate the philosophy paper i'm supposed to be writing, but....
this was an extremely personal post. luckily for me, only like 2 people read my blog. =)
homecoming.
homecoming was last night!!
i am a senior and had never been to homecoming before. but neither had my date. kaden. he's a sophomore. =)
we went on a double-day-date (with megan and dalan) and it was really fun. i really liked how laid back it was...we canoed across this little lake up in the canyon and went on a little hike/climb to this crappy little beach. we just joked around and hung out and had an awesome time. then we drove to this really cool park (us locals call it 3-story park. i have no idea what it's really called.) and had a picnic. then we had a "race" and rolled down this giant hill. the view from that park is amazing...you can see the whole valley. we were all sort of worn out from hiking and racing and what not, so we just sort of sat on the side of the hill, cuddled, and enjoyed the view and the amazing weather. it was sunny, breezy and beautiful.
after the day-date, the boys dropped us off and we got ready. i wore a little black dress and put my hair up. (it's not how i was originally gonna do my hair. i did not like how my hair turned out but i didn't have enough time to do what i wanted with it. sometimes having really thick hair is inconvenient.) kaden looked awesome in all black and a fuschia tie, and i painted my nails fuschia to match. =) when he picked me up, he brought me a daisy, and i, being the girl that i am, LOVED it. so cute, thoughtful and impressive. =)
next up: dinner. we ate dinner with 3 other couples at our friend, jake's, barn. earlier that week, the boys had set up the table and lights and it looked really cool. the parents cooked dinner and it was so good! i feel that i should admit that i had two desserts... =)
the dance was super cool. it was held in our high school gym and....wow. the gym was alomst unrecognizable. there was a red carpet, lanterns, lights, bistro tables on a cute little patio/garden, and there was even a fountain in the middle of the gym! the only thing that could have been improved was the music. it was WAY too quiet. if i can hear myself talking to the guy dancing across from me, the music isn't loud enough. =)
unfortunately, megan's date, dalan, was feeling sort of sick so we left a little earlier than we were originally going to. actually, we were originally all going to go back to jake's and watch a movie, but none of us really felt like hanging out with a ton of people and watching a dumb movie (i am number four. it's stupid. don't see it.) so dalan and kaden took us back to megan's house, where us girls ditched our dresses and fancy shoes and put on sweatpants and slippers. then we went back to dalan and kaden's where they changed into something more comfy as well. we finished out the night cuddling and watching the BYU/Utah game. (utah won.)
i got home at midnight (curfew) and went right to bed (right after my flower got some water and i had a quick snack. how was i hungry after two desserts?).
=) thanks kaden.
i am a senior and had never been to homecoming before. but neither had my date. kaden. he's a sophomore. =)
we went on a double-day-date (with megan and dalan) and it was really fun. i really liked how laid back it was...we canoed across this little lake up in the canyon and went on a little hike/climb to this crappy little beach. we just joked around and hung out and had an awesome time. then we drove to this really cool park (us locals call it 3-story park. i have no idea what it's really called.) and had a picnic. then we had a "race" and rolled down this giant hill. the view from that park is amazing...you can see the whole valley. we were all sort of worn out from hiking and racing and what not, so we just sort of sat on the side of the hill, cuddled, and enjoyed the view and the amazing weather. it was sunny, breezy and beautiful.
after the day-date, the boys dropped us off and we got ready. i wore a little black dress and put my hair up. (it's not how i was originally gonna do my hair. i did not like how my hair turned out but i didn't have enough time to do what i wanted with it. sometimes having really thick hair is inconvenient.) kaden looked awesome in all black and a fuschia tie, and i painted my nails fuschia to match. =) when he picked me up, he brought me a daisy, and i, being the girl that i am, LOVED it. so cute, thoughtful and impressive. =)
next up: dinner. we ate dinner with 3 other couples at our friend, jake's, barn. earlier that week, the boys had set up the table and lights and it looked really cool. the parents cooked dinner and it was so good! i feel that i should admit that i had two desserts... =)
the dance was super cool. it was held in our high school gym and....wow. the gym was alomst unrecognizable. there was a red carpet, lanterns, lights, bistro tables on a cute little patio/garden, and there was even a fountain in the middle of the gym! the only thing that could have been improved was the music. it was WAY too quiet. if i can hear myself talking to the guy dancing across from me, the music isn't loud enough. =)
unfortunately, megan's date, dalan, was feeling sort of sick so we left a little earlier than we were originally going to. actually, we were originally all going to go back to jake's and watch a movie, but none of us really felt like hanging out with a ton of people and watching a dumb movie (i am number four. it's stupid. don't see it.) so dalan and kaden took us back to megan's house, where us girls ditched our dresses and fancy shoes and put on sweatpants and slippers. then we went back to dalan and kaden's where they changed into something more comfy as well. we finished out the night cuddling and watching the BYU/Utah game. (utah won.)
i got home at midnight (curfew) and went right to bed (right after my flower got some water and i had a quick snack. how was i hungry after two desserts?).
=) thanks kaden.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
this one girl.
so i know this girl. she is absolutely wonderful in EVERY way.
i think that we are such good friends because we speak our own language. example...
Me: "So...when you're kissing a guy do you, like, you know..."
Her: "Oh my gosh yes! Hahaha! I didn't know you did too!"
Me: "Hahahaha! Yep! I didn't know if everybody did or if it was just me or what!"
Her: "Yeah! Oh my gosh a Rue 21! We're going right now!"
that was a real conversation that really happened. yesterday. we are so bright. =)
i also think she is wonderful because she is so stinking hilarious. so hilarious. you have no idea.
we share a sort of humor that very few people (outside of those who know us best) understand. example...
1) we're at macy's or dillard's or jc penny's or something, in a dressing room (shopping for a homecoming dress for her) and i am laying on the bench. i look up and she starts clucking and bobbing her head with her hands up by her shoulders. i was laughing sooooooo hard! i fell off the bench from laughing....
2) again, shopping. she finds a dress that she likes and shows her mom. mom doesn't like it. (it really was a gorgeous dress and i'm still confused about why it got vetoed...) she turns to me and mutters, "well it's just gonna end up on the floor anyway." hahahahahaha!! her mom didn't really appreciate that one, but it was super funny...
we are both very sarcastic, and some times we can go the whole day talking sarcastically to each other. it's impressive.
she eats/loves awesome food. including: pickles, cheese, salsa, cereal, watermelon, and homemade rootbeer.
*side note* one time, for lunch, we had a banquet that included all of these foods. that is another reason that she is my favorite person.
reason #3 that this girl is amazing is that she GETS me. she knows exactly how i feel when i 'like a boy, but not really, but yeah, he's super hot, but oh, i've never spoken to him', and when my mom is being a mom but i'm pissed at her for doing so. yup. she gets it. oh! this probably explains the fact that we speak our own language...duh. =)
she is sort of an "honorary" sister. i've never had a sister, but she fills all my requirements of a biological sister. she borrows my clothes. i borrow her clothes. she does my make-up...because i suck at it. she helped me dye my own hair...because i suck at it. she teaches me how to flirt-text...because i suck at it and because i am the queen of one-word-very-un-sexy-replies. when i'm getting ready, or when i go shopping with her, she is honest about how something looks on me. i love that.
she doesn't judge me. if i wear yellow polka-dot tights and a brown hoodie and don't do my hair, she'll tell me that yellow isn't my color, but she will still sit with me at lunch, laugh at my jokes, and listen to me complain about my life. (thank you)
reason #699 that this girl rocks. she is very anti-drama. neither of us are very dramatic. high school is full of dramatic teenaged girls. yet another reason that i think we are so close. we both kind of gravitate AWAY from drama. leading to....
we don't get in fights. we have arguments. but even that is a bit strong for what we have....disagreements, maybe? i can count on one hand the number of "fights" we've been in and none of them have lasted longer than 24 hours. this is probably attributed to the fact that we're so good at communicating. we barely have to talk, but understand exactly what the other is trying to say/get across.
we can read each other's mind. basically.
so thank you, megan, for being my best friend, honorary sister, and occasional roommate.
you are the best.
litterally.
love you.
helena.
i think that we are such good friends because we speak our own language. example...
Me: "So...when you're kissing a guy do you, like, you know..."
Her: "Oh my gosh yes! Hahaha! I didn't know you did too!"
Me: "Hahahaha! Yep! I didn't know if everybody did or if it was just me or what!"
Her: "Yeah! Oh my gosh a Rue 21! We're going right now!"
that was a real conversation that really happened. yesterday. we are so bright. =)
i also think she is wonderful because she is so stinking hilarious. so hilarious. you have no idea.
we share a sort of humor that very few people (outside of those who know us best) understand. example...
1) we're at macy's or dillard's or jc penny's or something, in a dressing room (shopping for a homecoming dress for her) and i am laying on the bench. i look up and she starts clucking and bobbing her head with her hands up by her shoulders. i was laughing sooooooo hard! i fell off the bench from laughing....
2) again, shopping. she finds a dress that she likes and shows her mom. mom doesn't like it. (it really was a gorgeous dress and i'm still confused about why it got vetoed...) she turns to me and mutters, "well it's just gonna end up on the floor anyway." hahahahahaha!! her mom didn't really appreciate that one, but it was super funny...
we are both very sarcastic, and some times we can go the whole day talking sarcastically to each other. it's impressive.
she eats/loves awesome food. including: pickles, cheese, salsa, cereal, watermelon, and homemade rootbeer.
*side note* one time, for lunch, we had a banquet that included all of these foods. that is another reason that she is my favorite person.
reason #3 that this girl is amazing is that she GETS me. she knows exactly how i feel when i 'like a boy, but not really, but yeah, he's super hot, but oh, i've never spoken to him', and when my mom is being a mom but i'm pissed at her for doing so. yup. she gets it. oh! this probably explains the fact that we speak our own language...duh. =)
she is sort of an "honorary" sister. i've never had a sister, but she fills all my requirements of a biological sister. she borrows my clothes. i borrow her clothes. she does my make-up...because i suck at it. she helped me dye my own hair...because i suck at it. she teaches me how to flirt-text...because i suck at it and because i am the queen of one-word-very-un-sexy-replies. when i'm getting ready, or when i go shopping with her, she is honest about how something looks on me. i love that.
she doesn't judge me. if i wear yellow polka-dot tights and a brown hoodie and don't do my hair, she'll tell me that yellow isn't my color, but she will still sit with me at lunch, laugh at my jokes, and listen to me complain about my life. (thank you)
reason #699 that this girl rocks. she is very anti-drama. neither of us are very dramatic. high school is full of dramatic teenaged girls. yet another reason that i think we are so close. we both kind of gravitate AWAY from drama. leading to....
we don't get in fights. we have arguments. but even that is a bit strong for what we have....disagreements, maybe? i can count on one hand the number of "fights" we've been in and none of them have lasted longer than 24 hours. this is probably attributed to the fact that we're so good at communicating. we barely have to talk, but understand exactly what the other is trying to say/get across.
we can read each other's mind. basically.
so thank you, megan, for being my best friend, honorary sister, and occasional roommate.
you are the best.
litterally.
love you.
helena.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
remember.
i was 7 years old ten years ago. i don't remember a lot, but i do remember mom watching the news in the morning, watching bits of the news in my class at school, and the news being on at home all evening. i also remember that my mom was on the phone a lot that day.
actually, i remember a lot more than i give myself credit for.
i remember knowing that something was very, very wrong. i remember feeling like every person at my school, in my neighborhood, in my ward, and in my life was a lot more important that day. every American was. i remember not being able to fully understand what exactly was wrong, but crying anyway because so many others were. i remember that some people had more to be afraid for than i did, but still feeling terrified. i remember being proud, so proud, that i lived where i lived. i remember being grateful (although somewhat ashamed for it) that myself and those that i loved were so far away from the east coast. i remember being worried and confused. i remember thinking about movies i had seen and what i had learned about war in school. what i couldn't seem to remember, though, was what came next.
being an American citizen was scary that day.
i think that was the day when i began to understand how very important the president of the United States is.
i thought today about the children of America, and how they will be effected by the attacks of September 11th. thousands were lost that day, and thousands will never understand the impact, the feeling, the magnitude...of experiencing that day in history. it seems weird to me that i will need to explain the importance of today to my own children someday. wow.
no mattter how far, physically, American citizens were from New York City or Pennsylvania, everyone, the entire country, came together and stood, slowly, but with confidence and courage, and together, lifted this country back up to where it stands today. i am extremely proud to live in the United States of America and am so grateful for all the heroes who were strong enough and brave enough to help and rescue and save everyone that they could. i am extremely sorry for those who lost loved ones that day. my prayers go out to them and to America.
i will never forget September Eleventh.
i remember.
actually, i remember a lot more than i give myself credit for.
i remember knowing that something was very, very wrong. i remember feeling like every person at my school, in my neighborhood, in my ward, and in my life was a lot more important that day. every American was. i remember not being able to fully understand what exactly was wrong, but crying anyway because so many others were. i remember that some people had more to be afraid for than i did, but still feeling terrified. i remember being proud, so proud, that i lived where i lived. i remember being grateful (although somewhat ashamed for it) that myself and those that i loved were so far away from the east coast. i remember being worried and confused. i remember thinking about movies i had seen and what i had learned about war in school. what i couldn't seem to remember, though, was what came next.
being an American citizen was scary that day.
i think that was the day when i began to understand how very important the president of the United States is.
i thought today about the children of America, and how they will be effected by the attacks of September 11th. thousands were lost that day, and thousands will never understand the impact, the feeling, the magnitude...of experiencing that day in history. it seems weird to me that i will need to explain the importance of today to my own children someday. wow.
no mattter how far, physically, American citizens were from New York City or Pennsylvania, everyone, the entire country, came together and stood, slowly, but with confidence and courage, and together, lifted this country back up to where it stands today. i am extremely proud to live in the United States of America and am so grateful for all the heroes who were strong enough and brave enough to help and rescue and save everyone that they could. i am extremely sorry for those who lost loved ones that day. my prayers go out to them and to America.
i will never forget September Eleventh.
i remember.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
megan, please don't read this...
hmmmmm.
so i didn't go to the gym today. i've been going every day since school started (nearly 4 weeks, minus a few days here and there) and never made it today. i've been feeling kind of down lately and just couldn't seem to pick up enough energy to get myself there. usually i can text my best friend and see if she's going. most of the time she is and the motivation of going WITH someone helps me make it to the gym. but that didn't really feel like an option today...
speaking of my best friend....she is currently "dating" her ex-boyfriend. "dating" meaning they hang out (a lot) and go on dates, and recently shared their "second-first-kiss". it's stupid. she told me a few weeks ago, when she and dalan (the ex) started texting and getting back together, that if she ever said she wanted to start dating him again, to smack her and tell her absolutely not.
well. now what?
i know that she likes to be with him. he's funny (sometimes), spontaneous, and has an awesome family (i absolutely adore his family). but i don't like it. it's not that i don't like HIM, he's a great guy, but i don't like them TOGETHER. he has really odd mood swings and gets angry really quickly. he also drives like a maniac (i am honestly scared for my life every time i'm in the car with him). he is really disrespectful to his parents and rude to his younger siblings. i really have no idea why megan is getting back together with him. the reason he is an ex is because she broke up with him. because he was too clingy and possesive! megan also gets really...indifferant around him. things that would usually bug her, she just laughs at. it's weird.
this is a "rant" blog, and i am so sorry. i don't usually like these kind of blogs, but i need to get it out. i would usually call up my best girlfriend and tell her all about it, but right now she is at dalan's house. with dalan. probably doing something cute. with dalan. so...yep.
i feel stupid for saying this, but i'm kind of jealous of dalan. that sounds so dumb and juvenile and i wish it wasn't true, but it's the only way to explain what the heck i'm feeling right now. for several months, it has just been me and megan. girl time, talking about boys and the various dates we go on, and how nice it would be to have a boyfriend or (back several weeks) a summer fling. we hung out every second that we could and told each other everything. now (today specifically), she spends tons of time with dalan. and i get it, i really do. i love spending time with guys who think i'm fantastic. but today, 5 minutes before lunch, megan texts me and says shes going somewhere with dalan. fine. i'll go eat on my own. then she texts me and tells me that they're back, so i go sit with them....and she and dalan flirt the whole time. i felt extremely third-wheel-ish and didn't really want to be there. she is my best friend and i've eaten lunch with her every day since junior year, but i find it really difficult to sit and watch while they tickle each other and laugh about private jokes and i have no idea what they're talking about and....oi.
then, this evening, kaden (dalan's younger brother who i am fantastic friends with) texted me and asked if i was coming over with megan. what?! um...no i guess not. i don't know why i felt so hurt, but having kaden (and dalan, i found out later) invite me over but NOT my best friend...i don't know. i can't explain it. it sort of felt like everyone wanted me there except for her.
this all sounds really dumb and hormone-y now that i go back and read it, but at least it's not all bottled up inside me anymore...
i love megan like a sister. she practically is one and i really want her to be happy. it's none of my business who she dates. i need to let it go and be happy for her... but if he breaks her heart or causes ANY drama. i will kick his ass.
so i didn't go to the gym today. i've been going every day since school started (nearly 4 weeks, minus a few days here and there) and never made it today. i've been feeling kind of down lately and just couldn't seem to pick up enough energy to get myself there. usually i can text my best friend and see if she's going. most of the time she is and the motivation of going WITH someone helps me make it to the gym. but that didn't really feel like an option today...
speaking of my best friend....she is currently "dating" her ex-boyfriend. "dating" meaning they hang out (a lot) and go on dates, and recently shared their "second-first-kiss". it's stupid. she told me a few weeks ago, when she and dalan (the ex) started texting and getting back together, that if she ever said she wanted to start dating him again, to smack her and tell her absolutely not.
well. now what?
i know that she likes to be with him. he's funny (sometimes), spontaneous, and has an awesome family (i absolutely adore his family). but i don't like it. it's not that i don't like HIM, he's a great guy, but i don't like them TOGETHER. he has really odd mood swings and gets angry really quickly. he also drives like a maniac (i am honestly scared for my life every time i'm in the car with him). he is really disrespectful to his parents and rude to his younger siblings. i really have no idea why megan is getting back together with him. the reason he is an ex is because she broke up with him. because he was too clingy and possesive! megan also gets really...indifferant around him. things that would usually bug her, she just laughs at. it's weird.
this is a "rant" blog, and i am so sorry. i don't usually like these kind of blogs, but i need to get it out. i would usually call up my best girlfriend and tell her all about it, but right now she is at dalan's house. with dalan. probably doing something cute. with dalan. so...yep.
i feel stupid for saying this, but i'm kind of jealous of dalan. that sounds so dumb and juvenile and i wish it wasn't true, but it's the only way to explain what the heck i'm feeling right now. for several months, it has just been me and megan. girl time, talking about boys and the various dates we go on, and how nice it would be to have a boyfriend or (back several weeks) a summer fling. we hung out every second that we could and told each other everything. now (today specifically), she spends tons of time with dalan. and i get it, i really do. i love spending time with guys who think i'm fantastic. but today, 5 minutes before lunch, megan texts me and says shes going somewhere with dalan. fine. i'll go eat on my own. then she texts me and tells me that they're back, so i go sit with them....and she and dalan flirt the whole time. i felt extremely third-wheel-ish and didn't really want to be there. she is my best friend and i've eaten lunch with her every day since junior year, but i find it really difficult to sit and watch while they tickle each other and laugh about private jokes and i have no idea what they're talking about and....oi.
then, this evening, kaden (dalan's younger brother who i am fantastic friends with) texted me and asked if i was coming over with megan. what?! um...no i guess not. i don't know why i felt so hurt, but having kaden (and dalan, i found out later) invite me over but NOT my best friend...i don't know. i can't explain it. it sort of felt like everyone wanted me there except for her.
this all sounds really dumb and hormone-y now that i go back and read it, but at least it's not all bottled up inside me anymore...
i love megan like a sister. she practically is one and i really want her to be happy. it's none of my business who she dates. i need to let it go and be happy for her... but if he breaks her heart or causes ANY drama. i will kick his ass.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Lack of...
there are a lot of things that i am lacking in life. number 1: the self-discipline to stop blogging and go do the homework that needs to be done. number 2: a photographic memory. and number 3:
i don't know. i have no idea what it is but i feel like i'm forgetting something. something important.
it feels like i have a test tomorrow that i didn't study for. (not it)
like i got ready and forgot to put on mascara or only put one earring in. (not it)
like i was supposed to meet someone for lunch and only remebered the day after. (not it)
maybe i'm just not getting enough sleep. that might be it. i usually go to bed at 10 (in bed, teeth brushed, lights out, falling asleep) but the last couple of days i've been getting to bed around 11/11:20. no bueno!!
perhaps i haven't been eating as healthily as i should. it seems like i either eat really healthy food all the time, all junk food all the time, or i just don't eat at all. hahaha! none of those are super good for you...maybe i should work on that as well.
hmmmmm....this blog post made no sense at all.
whatever.
i don't know. i have no idea what it is but i feel like i'm forgetting something. something important.
it feels like i have a test tomorrow that i didn't study for. (not it)
like i got ready and forgot to put on mascara or only put one earring in. (not it)
like i was supposed to meet someone for lunch and only remebered the day after. (not it)
maybe i'm just not getting enough sleep. that might be it. i usually go to bed at 10 (in bed, teeth brushed, lights out, falling asleep) but the last couple of days i've been getting to bed around 11/11:20. no bueno!!
perhaps i haven't been eating as healthily as i should. it seems like i either eat really healthy food all the time, all junk food all the time, or i just don't eat at all. hahaha! none of those are super good for you...maybe i should work on that as well.
hmmmmm....this blog post made no sense at all.
whatever.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
my weekend.
whoa. new blogging layout. i feel like i'm in wonderland...i have no idea where anything is. hahaha! i am not a huge supporter of changes...
so. this weekend has been one of the best weekends of my 17th year. wow. friday night i had a "party". and by party i mean the couple of people (guys) that i know fairly well came to my house, went to a football game, and then came back to my house. we played twister and roasted marshmallows. i had a ton of fun but i know that a couple of people there felt sort of awkward because they didn't know the other guys at all. i'm a person that gets a long with everyone, so i have friends in several different "social circles". ah well. it was fun for me. =)
that night, megan spent the night at my house. we stayed up for hours by the fire talking about boys and crushes and ex-boyfriends and parents and moving out...i love that girl. i think we need to start having more girltime...hahaha! if that is even possible!
on saturday, megan and i went to the pool. our days of warm weather, cut-off shorts, bikinis and tan lines are dwindling a lot faster than i would like them to. shortly after we got to the pool, megan's ex-boyfriend (still friends) and his brother showed up. we had a ball at the pool and the brother asked me to homecoming! yay! i've never been to homecoming, and can't wait to go with kaden!
then megan and i went to a park and had...more girl time! yay! we swung on swings (which is super fun! i forgot about that dropping feeling every time you get to the top...fantastic) and laid in the grass and talked about...boys! then we got ready for a kind-of-sort-of double date!
on this "date" (megan with her ex and i with this kid who i absolutely love and i think i have a crush on him) we played cards in the yard and wandered around the neighborhood till it got dark. then we laid in this park right by his house and just looked at the stars and talked. it was AMAZING! we talked and joked and saw shooting stars and it was perfect.
that was a fantastic weekend. the weekend continues tomorrow because there's NO SCHOOL! too bad my date from last night is gonna be out of town...
so. this weekend has been one of the best weekends of my 17th year. wow. friday night i had a "party". and by party i mean the couple of people (guys) that i know fairly well came to my house, went to a football game, and then came back to my house. we played twister and roasted marshmallows. i had a ton of fun but i know that a couple of people there felt sort of awkward because they didn't know the other guys at all. i'm a person that gets a long with everyone, so i have friends in several different "social circles". ah well. it was fun for me. =)
that night, megan spent the night at my house. we stayed up for hours by the fire talking about boys and crushes and ex-boyfriends and parents and moving out...i love that girl. i think we need to start having more girltime...hahaha! if that is even possible!
on saturday, megan and i went to the pool. our days of warm weather, cut-off shorts, bikinis and tan lines are dwindling a lot faster than i would like them to. shortly after we got to the pool, megan's ex-boyfriend (still friends) and his brother showed up. we had a ball at the pool and the brother asked me to homecoming! yay! i've never been to homecoming, and can't wait to go with kaden!
then megan and i went to a park and had...more girl time! yay! we swung on swings (which is super fun! i forgot about that dropping feeling every time you get to the top...fantastic) and laid in the grass and talked about...boys! then we got ready for a kind-of-sort-of double date!
on this "date" (megan with her ex and i with this kid who i absolutely love and i think i have a crush on him) we played cards in the yard and wandered around the neighborhood till it got dark. then we laid in this park right by his house and just looked at the stars and talked. it was AMAZING! we talked and joked and saw shooting stars and it was perfect.
that was a fantastic weekend. the weekend continues tomorrow because there's NO SCHOOL! too bad my date from last night is gonna be out of town...
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